Hope

You know it's gotten bad when you're afraid to feel hopeful because the rug keeps getting pulled out from under you. That's where I'm at now. I know I've asked God to not give me any job that isn't what my family needs, but every time I think He is giving me one, I don't get it. I know it's that I'm thinking and not trusting. I am just, well, afraid to hope any more. I trust and have faith it will work out as it is meant to, but I can't find it in me to hope for anything any more. How sad is that??

Bummer

So I didn't get the job. I'd prayed that I only be offered the job that best met my family's needs, so that helps. But still.
I'm about to interview for a graveyard shift at a gas station. Maybe Im not over qualified for this one.

Nerves

I'm nervous about tomorrow. I've never actually had a job interview before.
I've got new clothes (thanks, mom) and got my nails done (thanks, babe). Now I'm just freaking out.

Yippee!!

I have an interview! My first interview in over a year of applying. I'm so nervous about Wednesday.

Yay

And on a happy note, I thoroughly enjoyed Public Enemies. :-)
Good night!

Yay

And on a happy note, I thoroughly enjoyed Public Enemies. :-)
Good night!

Uh oh

This isn't good. My right ear is doing that achy thing it does right before I find out I have an ear infection.

I didn't get called for an interview, so I'm guessing I won't be getting the job. I found some more possibles today, so those applications and resumes will be going out on Monday.

I really hate cold weather, and snow, an the month of January. I have issues with Seasonal Depression, in addition to my social anxiety and general depression, so January just really does me in. I'm really struggling right now, what with having been so sick and having a crappy holiday season, then being cooped up inside with two bickering children, and not being able to get a job. I've really let the house go. I just noticed how badly I did today. Sheesh. I need to get on it, but I really don't want to.

We went without water today because the door to our well house was left open and the pipe/pump assembly froze. D fixed it when he got home from work, and it's fine now. The door is shut and the heat lamp is on, but just another aggrevation I didn't need.

Once the kids go to bed, D is turning off the Xbox and we are going to watch Public Enemies. I've been wanting to watch this for a while, so I hope I'm not disappointed.

I'm really focusing on being positive and finding the silver linings. That's this year's goal (I don't do resolutions). I promise to do better with that in the next post.

Maybe?

Another job applied for. Please God, let this be the one. I'm running out of options. If I don't get a job soon, D will have to take a second job, which means we won't be able to both coach baseball. Honestly, I doubt either of us would coach just because of the time involved. So, please Lord, let me get a job this week.